求大神翻译！！万分感谢！！十万火急！！悬赏10！！ 很久以前，我想过很多次以后

A long time ago, I thought many times after. I thought that one day I gave up you. Maybe you can't understand the whole meaning for me what you represent, I can only say that no one one tell you. That day I suddenly looked up, instantaneous froze in place. I feel happy, then deeply sad. I hide every time I see your heart ecstasy, endure every time want to talk to you. But this is not hard. I've always sorry for you, you start from the understanding, feel deeply ashamed for their own selfish fling caution to the winds. You said let me don't be so impulsive, but I have found, how the change. You are a source of faith, give me the power. It is from a distance and not important to me. You should really think impassability why would someone put a do not know what people put in a position to own is very important, but I was so strange, identified a person, is not easy to change. But I have been afraid, afraid you will like the last, in this life the first let me feel you can pay。。。好长

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